I don't normally post my loss stories on here but this one I will. I had just got Dawn last weekend. We picked her up with her dam Julie and her brother Lil'Wayne. I had her stalled today trying to dry her dam off who's still got some of an udder. That and to see how she would settle down being one-on-one since she's so wild with her dam. I stalled her in the first stall and had let her dam out today. Well while I was out front waiting on my daughter to get home from school I noticed her in her stall standing upward. I thought it was odd she wasn't moving so I moved around some to get a better view. After a minute of her not moving I decided to go down and check on her. As I got closer the reality of the situation set-in. I got in her stall and she was dead. She had hung herself by her collar. She had been trying to get out most likely and got her collar hung on the top of a cattle panel. I have the tv on but the camera is on Anna and her new twin boys. I'm surprised I didn't hear anything. I knew better than to put her in that stall. She's antsy enough that I shouldn't have put her in a stall where she could climb around any. She was a big doeling and I had hoped to breed her in another month. I feel so guilty, I had that feeling this morning but I didn't listen to it. Hubby doesn't understand how I could have that feeling. I was hoping to clip her this afternoon too. Its been so rough lately, so many problems left and right. I've been really close to selling out numerous times. I'm trying to hold on till the good times roll back in. I really hope things turn around soon. I need something really uplifting. :tears: Thanks for letting me get this out.