With my previous post no longer an "emergency" I am still needing some input here. I'm driving my hubby up a tre with my anxiety over Penny, vet said Listeria or "acute mold toxicosis" and well, with treatment she will be getting better....but it's not soon enough for me. I have to fight/stress her to give her injections which I guess is a good sign because all Saturday and Sunday she let me do it, Monday morning was the first she fought me and has continued to do so. It is really cold and windy here so the door is shut to the outside, she is munching down the hay as well as some alfalfa pellets, she's still got a bit of uneasiness on her feet...not stumbling but will slightly go off balance. She's now getting up on her hind legs when she wants something. Maybe I am not seeing all the good but am looking at the "bad" or looking for more of the bad? IDK She enjoyed some warm oatmeal this morning as did everyone else, had her pen and B shots and proceeded to attack the hay. Shes pooping normal and peeing/drinking when I'm not around because I find little piles in puddles on the floor. The symptoms she had when I knew something was wrong: Saturday at 4 was the first I saw her and the others and I FEEL SO ROTTEN AT THE LATENESS. I had fed later on Christmas Day night and slept in on Saturday and went up to milk Bootsie and feed at 4pm...normally it's 2pm. She wanted her grain, she got 3/4 cup, I milked Bootsie and realized that Penny wasn't standing against the stall door waiting to be let out, got Boots back with the others, let Penny out and she literally was staggering, eyes were dancing and darting so I immediately brought her in the house and dosed her with activated Charcoal gel, she went back out with the herd, it was nice so the girls went to browse Penny was staggering around, never fell and proceeded to go with the others, I called Stacey and she had said the same as I was thinking, polio and to start her on Pen too. Had my friend Steph on the phone and she brought me the B complex and Pen because dummy me had an expired bottle. Penny never once circled or fell, never had an issue rising when laying down, her left ear was droopy and her eyes still dancing. By 8 pm she'd had 12cc B complex as well as 2 cc penicillan. By 10pm her eyes were still and she had another 8cc b complex. Still eating and drinking, the staggering was less. Sunday morning she had 2 cc pen and 8cc b comp. eating and being normal except for the wobbliness. Sunday at 2 she got more B complex and 2cc pen at 5 pm. Still improving, no worse. Monday at 4 30 am she got pen and B comp had some warm koolaid and some alfalfa pellets, a tablespoon of grain and I called the vet from work, he was here by 2 pm which I was able to leave work early, She was just about normal, wouldn't stay in one spot for the vet. Last night she got her pen and b as vet said to continue til Saturday. This is Tuesday and though she's not worse or even doing the things that led me to know something was wrong, she's still a bit wobbly and I am so scared because she really struggles when I try to give her the pen, I know she needs it and I do get it into her , she goes back to eating when I let her go so I know it doesn't upset her too much. I am rambling I know, but even my hubby is getting mad at me because I keep waiting for the really bad to happen. Hubby tells me "it is what it is, you are doing your best and it's up to her now. she's come this far, it's now been 67 hours since I noticed this all started, I've read that the first 72 hours are the critical time for treatment....can I truly believe that the worst is over? Please believe that I'm not a nut and that I just really care and love my goats, after the loss I had back in June...at my own hand, I don't think I can deal with another.