He has been having trouble with his vision for a while. But today he is blind. I don't know what to do. It is so hard to see the one you love look at you with no emotion in their eyes, just a blank stare. He is so brave though. He actually had dinner mostly done when I came home from work. Thank God for the rotisseri machine. He got it done with no help from me, other than setting out the trussing twine and spice on the counter for him. He goes in on the 31st for pre-op for surgery. Then he has to wait for an organ donor. I don't know if I can deal with everything all at once. I'm trying to keep my chin up. But some moments I feel okay, and the next I feel like bawling.