I'm right there with you. I've smoked since age 15 ..wow 26 years ago and I smoke at least a pack a day. When out if I am unable to go get any I search through the butts for just one more puff. It really is an addiction and a very strong one. I've wanted to quit for a long time, but it is a major stress reliever for me. I smoke first thing when i get up, every time I get in the car, before eating or cooking, after eating. I tried quitting before and it's hard for me because I can't chew gum (I'm allergic to the pheno in all gum) so I ate alot and gained alot of weight which to me was worse than the smoking so I started back again so I could lose the weight. Keeping busy doesn't help me because that's when I want to smoke more - it's the "Gosh I need to take a break - smoke" thing. But if you are determined I know you can do it! Don't be weak like me, stay strong! There's been a lot of good suggestions here to help you and when you really want to smoke come on here and start a rant, we'll listen and be there for you. Also try to find a local support group, I think that is very important. Hopefully your husband will want to quit with you. That has always been my biggest problem. Even when I try to quit, everyone around me still smokes. I can say it will be the hardest thing you've ever had to do, but in the end it will also be one of your BIggest accomplishments. Good Luck and God Bless!