Okay, here's my update.

Well, first off my (now ex) boyfriend and I had a huge fight over him flirting with other girls, he was mad at me for being mad at him and said that I should trust him but I'd already asked him to please watch it three times and I was getting tired of having to ask him, so we are now officially over. Then Heidi, scared me to death one day when she was acting completely off she wasn't eating or baaing or anything, so I was afraid of checking on her in the morning, but she was perfectly fine the next morning.
I went to the Tulsa State Fair for three days, I didn't get anything but I did talk to my old ag teacher who happens to be a sheep breeder and he said he will breed Tempest and Molly for free to one of his rams, it was fun and got my mind off of the break-up. And yesterday I had a band contest, we got first in field, and third in parade.
Not all was bad but the break-up really messed with my head for a while because it was almost three years, actually it would have been three years tomorrow I was just ready to cry at the slightest thing every day for a while until I realized what a jerk he was and it wasn't my fault it was his and I didn't deserve what he did to me, so I'm fine now. I really just need a break. I did spend a couple of hours with Lyric, Heidi, Tempest, and Molly today, so that helped. Sorry about this, but I've been needing this for a while now, so thanks for reading.

 

Thanks so much.

 

I hope he does change, he used to be the greatest guy then he just all of a sudden changed and I know people change, but not like this he just became someone I didn't know anymore. Funny thing is he's been trying to call me, but I don't have the strength yet to talk to him. Oh and we did try to be just friends again but it hurt worse especially with him telling me how he was flirting with other girls at the parties he went to, so I broke that off too. And he always acted like nothing happened between us, and that just about killed me.
Oh and here's one other problem, his cousin has a huge crush on me and asked me to prom (it's in May so it's a while off.) and he's okay when he's alone, but he really scares everyone at school, he was voted most likely to bring a gun to school, he smokes, he has a history of rape (supposedly, and he actually said it) so I'm really scared about that too, because I don't want to be mean to him, but I don't want to go with him, so I just told him we'll see.

 

Thanks everyone, it's already looking up. I'm dealing with this with my head up and my eyes wide open.
I play flute but when it's marching season I'm the drum major. I'm also learning piccolo (talk about lightheaded.) and guitar.

 

Thanks, but I'm not so talented at the guitar though or math, I haven't got anyone to give me lessons on guitar over here, too bad you're so far away. :lol: I had to break up a fight between a percussionist and my bass guitarist when we were finding seats, they were fighting over the seats and it was 7:00 a.m. and I hadn't gotten more than a couple of hours sleep in a little less than a week and was not in the mood and I yelled "Sit down in a seat, before I put you where I want you and you won't like where that is." They sat down and got quiet real quick :evil: The rest of the band was saying that they'd never heard me yell like that and later on in the day the two that were fighting bought me a drink and a snack. :roll:

 

Okay today said ex. decided to show up to my house unannounced! I was too stunned that he had the nerve to show up after I specifically told him I wanted him to stay away from me that I didn't do anything! If I hadn't been so stunned I probably would have slapped him, I'm sorry but he should have respected how I felt. :evil: I really need to get out of this town for a while. :cry:

 

Thanks, goathappy. But everything's going downhill quick, there've been rumors about me at school and now EVERYONE thinks I'm psycho and bipolar. I'm seriously about to ask my parents if we can move, (the only reason we haven't moved is because my sister and I have been happy here.) I really just want to cry everyday right now. What do you think I should do? I'm just trying to prove them wrong right now, I don't know how I'm going to do it though. :cry:

 

Yeah, I'm probably going to talk to the counselor tomorrow. But I really almost want to move.