[marie_martin]

I finally made the decision to let all my goats go. I have had some health problems and after we got into the mess with the NDGA only reg. goats and were going to have to basically start over anyway,(long story) I sat down and did some heavy soul searching. I originally started with the goats and did almost everything myself. DH did help but I enjoyed doing it. Then when I got sick (fibromyalgia) I got to where I could not do as much and DH has had to take over doing it and it is a lot on him on top of all the yard work and stuff. So it just was not fair to ask him to keep doing it not knowing when I will feel better. So we decided since we were going to sell all and start over we would just take some time in between then and decide if we even want to start up again. So the lady who bought the goats has had issues and they just left today, but in the meantime, we made a decision to hold off for now getting any more. Maybe not ever. The only two left here are the two bucks and they will be sold too. I just have to find the right home for them. They just left with the girls and my heart is broken. Jasmine was my favorite and her little doeling is so sweet too, they will just crawl into my lap. I will so miss them all very much. I know I made the right decision but it hurts so much. I still have the chickens but that is just different. I could always go to the goat pen and sit with them when I felt bad and it always made me feel better. Like they understood. But, I guess we all have to face things we don't want to. That has been the hardest part of this damn disorder, is losing who I am. Having to say "I can't do that". But I need to spend the times that I do feel good with my family. They come first. So.....

Anyway, keep me in your prayers, and my babies (4 legged) at their new home. I am sure they will be happy but I will miss them very much and I like to think that they will miss me too??

Marie

 

[StaceyRosado]

Oh marie I am so sorry to hear that! I knew you were selling out but it is different when the day comes.

Health and family do need to come first and we all understand that.

Of course you are more then welcome to stick around here and we will keep you in our prayers. If you ever get a couple little goaties again do let us know so we can enjoy them with you once more. :hug:

 

[liz]

Marie, I am so sorry to hear of your health being bad! I'm sure your goaties went to a very nice and loving home and I'm sure you can get updates on them whenever you wish. It was very un selfish of you to think of your hubby doing all for them, it's really important now for you to take time to mend and be with your family....stick around please, you can talk chicken if you wish! And please take care of yourself, my mom suffers from the disorder also so I know how mentally and physically draining it can be on a body...we can help take your mind off the pain.

 

[fritzie]

marie i was diognsied 10 yrs ago with fibromyalgi. it is very pain full but the one thing that keeps me going is knowing i have to get out of bed & go take care of them. when my dh was alive he use to help me alot but i just couldn't lose him & all my goats at the same time. i do keep my herd small & i still have alot of pain(lots of other issues with FM) but i refuse to give in to it. i hope taht you will be able to live with it some day also. :hug:

 

[trob1]

:hug: Marie I hope you get to feeling better and are able to get back into goats soon.

 

[goathappy]

Oh I'm so sorry to hear that Marie!! I'll be praying for you :hug: ray:

 

[marie_martin]

Thanks so much you guys. I really appreciate it. We just have so much going on with DD in dance and DS in karate and baseball and school and then I was trying to work full time until my recent layoff. Now I have to try to find another job with this condition which will be challenging. So for now it was the right decision. I did not have the time it took or the energy to properly take care of the goats. They needed their hooves done more often and things did get behind quite often due to my lack of energy. So I think they will be much happier. Brandi at HollowBead Ranch will make a great home for them and will keep me updated often I am sure. I almost did not want to accept the money, I felt like I was selling my kids in a sense. I guess this time was really harder because so many went at once. I went out to close up the chickens and when I do that I usually walk by the goat pen and they talk to me a bit before heading off to bed. Tonight it was so quiet it was a sad reminder. Those beautiful girls and their babies will be missed for some time now. Thanks again to everyone for your support. Only goat people can truly understand what this is like. I will keep in touch and keep check on all of you and your goats. Feel free to email me too. [email protected]

Marie

 

[StaceyRosado]

marie when my only two goats died I wouldnt' even go near the goatpen for the entire month that I was without goats. it was to painful......so hearing your story relieves that time for me and I know your pain. :tears:

 

[HollowbeadRanch]

Marie once again I am very sorry about everything you have been going through here lately.

I just wanted to let you know that the goats are doing great and are fitting in wonderfully. Also, I hope to get some pics of all of them tomorrow to post and to add to my website. If you ever need to talk to someone or just want to check on the goats or anything for an update you have both of my email addresses and my cell number. Feel free to call or email any time. Thank you again for letting me get the girls (and boy... can't leave him out :wink: ), and I hope that everything works out for you and your family :hug:

 

[fritzie]

Marie have you tried the new drug for fibromyalgia? i think it is called lyrica. i tried it but it made me feel space. i hope that some day they will find something to help us. keep your chin up. :hug:

 

[Nupine]

Oh I am so sorry!! My mom has fibromyalgia, and it has caused her to loss who she is. She can only ride our horses for like 15 minutes to a half hour, she can't lift grain, etc. It is really hard on her.

Fritzie, my mom tried Lyrica too. It hardly did a thing, and it made her very sleepy and dizzy.

 

[sweetgoats]

Marie, I feel for you, and I know that the Lord will take care of you. We all know that you did what was best for all that was involved, and the lord was able to bring you and Brandi together so you know they went to a wonderful home, and we all know that she will keep you posted. Look at it this was, you did not lose goats, you gained a daughter in law. :stars: Brandi is now part of you extended family.
I will be praying for you and the whole situation. I do know what you are going thru. My DH was diagnosed with FM, back in 1994. He told me he was not going to let that take away his life, and he was going to prove the military wrong. (they medically discharged him because they said he was going to be in a wheel chair by the year 2000). So far he has proved them wrong and he doesn't plan on them ever being right about being wheel chair bound.
Hand in there and I will pray for you. ray:

 

[marie_martin]

Thanks so much everyone for you kind words of support. You don't know how much it truly means. The hardest part of having goats was not having anyone locally who understood my interest in them. Coming here and to other forums is such a great source of support. And having an illness is sort of the same, you feel alone. Like no one can understand what you are going through. And to be laid off your job where you have been very dependable and did a good job for 5 yrs is so hard knowing that I have to find something that wont make me hurt worse and being in a new job they wont be as understanding when I am sick. But I know that sometimes things don't go the way we want to. I am not a huge believer in the "things always happen for a reason" theory, but I believe that sometimes you get a bad situation handed to you and God gives you the strength and the tools you need to make something positive come out of that. So I plan to use this situation and make something positive for myself and my family. And you guys support has given me more courage to do that. So thanks again.

Marie

 

[fritzie]

nupine that is what it did to me the same thing as your mom. i was so excited when they said they had a treat meant & then it didn't work

 

[HollowbeadRanch]

Marie, just wanted to let you know that I posted some pics of them in the Photogenic section :greengrin: