Today I found out two things. One, my dad has lost his job, and at 62 with a back disability its really hard for him to get jobs. He helps me a lot to pay for the goat feed etc Two, I wont get any funding to do my honours year at uni this year, because centrelink only pays youth allowance to undergrad students (and people who are unemployed, how unfair is that). Between those two things, plus my big vet and mechanic bills that I am in the process of paying off, and it hasnt rained here since December not a drop, and my hay supplier had a fire come through and wipe out all the hay that he had stockpiled for me (he's my god father, so I got it like half price). Its really hard to write this but I'm going to have to sell almost all my goats. I put an ad up this morning and honest to god it just about killed me, I cried like a baby when I typed it up. I'm bawling my head off right now so I'm gonna go to bed and might talk more about this all tomorrow. I feel like my heart is breaking. I dont know how on earth I'm gonna let these goats go.