Haven't been here in awhile. We have spent all summer waiting for the birth of our little donkey. Little Yahoo was born yesterday (8/16/10). A soft, gorgeous little boy with the white nose I had been hoping for. My mother-in-law called me at work a little while ago to tell me he had died. This was our first livestock birth. We are newbies. I am wracked with guilt at the thought that our inexperience might have caused the little darling to live for only a day. I left work for awhile and had a hysterical outburst alone in my van. I can't begin to explain the guilt I am feeling. I have spent all summer watching the calves next door, who were born this year, live and grow just fine. I so wanted to sit in the grass with him and love him and hold him. And pet that beautiful white nose. If this was how it was supposed to be, then so be it. But if it was somehow my newbie fault, I hope he can forgive us. Really debating whether I can handle breeding Aggy, our Nigerian, this fall.